I Wish

I wish that I could give you even a little bit of what you deserve.
But I'm sorry that I can't, I really wish that I could though.
I can't tell you how much it pains me to not be able to afford something small for you.
Heartbreaking that even the food that you like I can't buy for you because we don't have enough.
While you sleep tight not knowing what's going on, I lie awake crying because I don't want you too see.
I've tried everything that I could have and time after time all I get is sorry but I can''t help you.
Can't even think about Christmas because I don't want to see the disappointment on your face.
My beautiful boys i wish that I could give you the best, but I'm sorry that I can't right now.
I would do anything for you guys just to give you a good Christmas, please know that I am trying.
It hurts me that I can''t even give you that but I promise you that I'm spending every moment trying.
Looking for a job so that way I can afford to buy you gifts, I know that once I find one I would be around much
But I promise that every second that I am away from you I'm think about you guys and wishing that I was with you.
I know that every moment that I am away I'm making some money to make things better for us.
So if anyone needs help with anything please let me know because I'll would be willing to help you, because you would be helping me in making these hard times for my family better. Thank you